Anonymous: you can think like that just be happy yo forreal. its easier then people think. you are in control of this life the outcome of anything you have to pick what to do. pisk happy. xD
for me, it’s harder than it seems.
I just wish I could stop crying.
Anonymous: Hey yo, Dont be silly. xD you control your happiness smile!
no i dont.
Anonymous: hey, like you shouldnt be self harming you are way to pretty for scares.
well, thanks. I wish I thought like that.
I always make everything worse. Anytime he’s depressed I always say the wrong thing without even meaning to and I make everything worse than it already was. Lately I’ve just been feeling like the biggest piece of shit on the planet. I’m so close to 100 days, but tonight has been so triggering. Sometimes I wish I could just do it without having the marks for proof. I don’t want to go back to my old ways. But, in a way, I miss it. Self-Harm is a fucking addiction and sometimes, I think that I’m not ready to break it. I want to feel okay. I don’t want to come home and go to bed at 2:30pm because I can’t take anything more that day. I’m having really bad withdraws, and they’re killing me. Nothing helps. I’m not okay, but of course, you wouldn’t know that.
